Aspired by a Boy

I'm going to live at disney world for this college internship program its gonna be great we get to go on all the rides and stuff free. I don't get to choose my apartment until I get there which sucks because I want the tiniest one/cheapest one they've got so I have more money to spend having fun., but i'll get there late. I haven't got a camera yet but im thinking if I can't find one I can afford one with the tiny check that I get this week then I'll use my credit card which I don't have any money on but oh well I think its just a 30 dollar fee for over the limit fee. Then thats when I'll start my online show on youtube, it won't be great but its something fun to do. its gonna be vids of me singing other peoples song which is so unoriginal, then myself singing my own songs which are very christian and then I'll start a show called comedic teddy where I do random outrageous stuff and then they'll be vids of disney world. I can't wait.

So yesterday was the big step for me on singing in front of a live audience. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. First of all I thought I wasn't gonna be the only one to perform but I was and second I never been so nervous in my life. I went up there wishing it was just a dream and I wasn't nervous then but once I was in front of the mic I was ambushed by nerves. I didn't know how to hold the mic, I forgot my words but thankfully I brought the lyrics in case that happened this was for Gloria, I didn't have a focal point so my eyes were looking everywhere and I was stiff as a cardboard. Then near the end of Gloria I broke into a laughing spell. It was funny because I sung a capella and when I took a pause they would start clapping and I would politely say wait im not done yet which isn't very classy or polite. For ave maria I tried to do one of the high notes and messed it up and everyone laughed and I attempted it again and it was great. They were really nice about it. Oh boy! it was terrible. my job taped the whole thing maybe I can get a copy and share it with you. Im just glad my first performance was at my job with really nice residents who wouldn't mind my mistakes.

I will perform two songs this friday, it will be ave maria caccuni which took me over a month for it to actually sound descent, and then Air ( bach on g ) which I only practiced for two days but you know what Its difficult but Im going for it. My audience is my co-workers and a retirement community so it won't be so bad. I hope I don't freeze up and forget the words. oh boy, I kinda can't wait though. This is so exciting.

I know Im a fan of libera, and its very restricting, You aren't allowed to know anything about them, pretty much nothing at all, Its a smart thing to do though for Libera as a group. You know give them a clean slate so that the fans an make the boys into something they like. Let me tell you, I am not that old and I still remember when I was in middle lets go even younger elementary school and many boys especially if they are popular have potty mouths, and may be rude and disrespectful. I worked as a teachers assistant when I was 17 and so I got reminded not too long ago that little kids aren't all that innocent. I think thats how it is with the boys of libera or any religious boys choir for that matter. I mean I know they are supposed to be catholic but be honest with yourself they're still young and can be easily influenced by their classmates. Yea, I wanted to believe they were nice boys but I think that belief for me is broken now. want an example of the majority of how young teenage boys think and behave?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2gptyTzII0